tell me if i should or not.

You and Louis recently started dating but you never told him about your past. You didn’t plan on telling him either, You suffered from a lot of different things when you were around 12. One day you were sitting in your room waiting for Louis to come home from recording the new album. You knew he would be home for a really long time, so you decided to call up an old friend who helped you stay strong during your rough patch. 

“Hey, (y/f/n)” you say.

“Hey (y/n) we haven’t talked in ages! i didn’t even know you remember me” she said.

“haha, i could never forget you.. i constantly think about how much you’ve impacted my life.. but it’s happening again. Everything’s happening again… i don’t know what to do.” 

“what do you mean?” she said

“I’ve become so depressed again.. I’m confused.. I’m becoming so insecure again, the cuts are coming back. I’m scared ill have to leave again.” you say timidly.

“(y/n) why? did anything change? i don’t understand?” she said worried.

“Well, i recently started dating Louis Tomlinson… from one direction, but i’ve come to realize that i’m not even good enough for him. I’m scared i’ll let him down. I just… it’s all happening again. And i don’t know if i can do this.” you say as you started crying.

“I’m going to come out and see you. I think we need to talk face to face about this.” she said

you hung up the phone and cried for hours.

the door swung open and you hear a cheery voice which rang out “Babe! Where are you? I’ve missed you bunches!”

You go up from your bed wiped off your face and walked down the stairs to see a face that makes you happy.. and sad all at the same time.

“Hey lou.” you said.. you continues “My friends coming in for a couple days, i havet seen her in ages and we just need time to catch up.”

“Cool” said louis “i’ve never met a friend of yours, i bet shes lovely!” he continued.

Louis went up stairs and you sat down on the couch. Covering your arms from what you started doing again. Lou came downstairs and ate some food you made earlier.  you and lou were sitting on the couch when a knock at the door was heard. you opened the door only to see the face you haven’t in 4 years.

“(y/f/n) i’m so glad you’re here I really… Thank you” you were happy you finally got to see her.

“Hey!  anytime” as she said walking in.

“Lou, we’re going to go upstair for a bit we have some catching up to do” you say.

“Okay, babe i’ll be down here for a bit if you need anything.. just holler” he said cheerfully.

“Wait, whats your friends name?” he said.

you told him and you were on your way up.

when you got upstairs to the bedroom, you broke down you didn’t even know what to do besides that.. just cry. As you sat on your bed with you head down your friend bent down and gave you a hug. She grabbed your arm and saw it. 

“It’s bad isn’t it? But how could it be? you’re dating Louis, he always says he loves you endlessly.” she says confused.

“… it’s just I’m not goof enough for him? look at me… I’m a mess, i’m completely messed up in the head! I am not as good as his previous girlfriend.. i can’t even begin to describe how insecure i feel around him.. he’s so perfect and then when i see myself i just see imperfection.. My depression has started coming back, im cutting again.. and like i feel like im letting him down..” you say crying..

At this point you didn’t know that Louis was outside the door and he heard everything… he wasn’t eavesdropping he was going to use the bathroom and he heard your crying and he was confused. 

your friends started talking again and calmed you down after about an hour you were fine and you both walked downstairs to hang out with Lou. When you got downstairs you sat next to him and your friends sat in the chair next to you guys.. for some odd reason it was quiet it wasn’t like Lou to be this quiet especially around strangers. a couple days past and your friend left. you said your good byes and you and Lou were left in the house together.

“Babe…” louis started of. 

“why didn’t you tell me about your depression.. insecurities.. and cutting?” he said sadly.

you started tearing up.

“I.. didn’t want you to leave me.. so i.. kept to myself.. I’m not like the other girls you’ve dated.. honestly i don’t even know why you picked me in the first place..” you said sobbing.

Louis grabbed your arm rolled up your sleeve and saw your cutts.. He started crying, he kissed them then looked at you.

“I picked you because the way I looked into your eyes was so different from everyone else… they looked so alone and at the same time filled of hope. You’re beautiful, and you were just.. when we talked for the first time, the way you spoke was so.. i don’t know how to put this.. it was just so unique, i never thought that i would have met a girl who was so deep and as beautiful as you were. or should i say you are.” he said with tears streaming down your face.

you were bawling your eyes out at this point. You didn’t know that anyone would love you for your flaws.. considering you had so many of them. You and lou were standing in the the foyer and he was holding you tight.. you heard his gasps for air before weeps.. he heard your as well. Louis looked down at you and said..

“(y/n) i will not let you go on like this.. I will stay by your side and you will learn to love yourself like i love you.. you’re are my beautiful girlfriend and i love you for who you are even after learning about you.. i love you even more, you’re so strong.. and you may not think this right now… but you’re perfect, you have no flaws in my eyes”

after this day.. you stopped cutting, your depression eased up and you became more confident. With out your old friend and louis.. you honestly did know if you would have still been with him. everyday you look at louis and thank him for eveything. you and your friends keep in touch and you see her often as well. It’s been 3 years since louis has found out and you two are now engaged and stronger then ever.

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You recently moved to london to study abroad, you literally just got there so you only knew a couple of places like the local coffee shop, a couple of food stores, but really you had no idea. Yeah you’ve read up on london since your going to live there for 6 months, but you couldnt learn everything. It was beautiful there not only were you just going to live there and explore but you were one of those people who was looking for love because back home in chicago, no one there was worth your time. 

A couple of weeks went past and you’ve been going to school strolling around and going to the little coffee shop and hanging out. You’ve met a couple of people who you would call friends, they were really sweet. There were 2 Girls and 1 Boy, 
Lilly, Francesca, and Christopher. They were really, your only friends there. One day while walking with them around town as they showed you little places, you all saw a swoon of girls running the streets chasing a car. You were confused as to what the hell was going on but Lilly, Francesca, and Christopher knew what was going on so they filled you in. 

“Please tell me you know the band One Direction” Lilly jokes, in one of those desperate teenager girl voices.

“Uh, yeah my little sister was completely obsessed with them.” you replied

“Well.. i guess their back for a bit and now these teenagers will be crawling the streets until their gone i guess.” Francesca said.

“Maybe, ill be lucky and catch one of the boys attention” you joked.

“Me too, Maybe Harry would like me!” Christopher joked along.

everyone laughed, as you carried along walking the streets of London.

a couple days later you went to the coffee shop to write a paper, you got your latte and took a seat in a small booth near the back of the shop. You knew the boys were still in town but there wasn’t a ton of screaming going around, which was good because you needed to get your work done. No body really came to this coffee shop you learned while you were writing, you noticed that only some people come. When people walked in you looked up at the door just to see if you knew anybody, but of course you didn’t. You continued to write, but you decided you were going to listen to some music because it seems to help you write better. After awhile, you zoned out and really started get this essay done. As you were working somebody taps you on the shoulder, startled by this you took out your earphones and looked up. This person looked so familiar but you couldn’t figure out who this could have been. 

“Hi, I was wondering if i could sit here with you.” the person said.

“uhm, sure i guess” you say puzzled.

He sits down infront of you. Subconsciously you started staring at him because you knew who he was but not his name, how you knew him, or what hes from. The Man started smiling. 

“why are you staring at me like that?” he said

startled you say “Sorry, you look so familiar… whats your name?”

“My names Louis, Louis Tomlinson. Whats yours?” he says.

now remembering who this guy was you started to get nervous, your mind was going crazy… this guy is famous, why is he talking to me? is this a joke?

“My names (y/n)” you says quickly trying to break the awkward pause you caused.

“cool, where you from.. im guessing not around here.” Louis said

“im from Chicago.” you say.

“chicago, i love chicago their pizza is delicious, but if you dont mind me asking why are you here in london?” Louis says.

“im studying abroad, and my little sister Mae told me to come here.. so i did” you say.

you saw that it was getting late and you’ve been here for a really long time so you decide it was time for you to go.

“uhmm, It’s getting late and i’ve been here forever so i think i’m going to leave.. it was nice meeting you.” you say

as you pack up your things Louis started talking again.

“i should have gotten here earlier than, haha well i was wondering could i possibly have your number.. you seem like a really nice girl maybe we could hangout somtime?” lou said.

“sure” you wrote down your number and handed it too him.

you walked out and noticed Louis was right there next to you, you were confused as to why he was there. you turned to him and said

“well, it was nice talking to you and you can call me whenever… so maybe we will see eachother again” you say with a grin

louis smiles and you part ways.

you got to your apartment you emailed your little sister what had happened. She immediately told you to go on skype. So you did.

“Mae” you says.

“are you serious? like Louis Tomlinson, The real Louis? How!” Mae says.

“i really dont even know, i was doing some homework and he just like asked if he could sit down, i didnt wanna be rude and say no so i said sure.” you so confused.

“oh my god, im so jelous he like my favortie one.” Mae says.

“well i dont think were going to be anything more then friends, and i dont think you should worry about it.” you say jokingly

“better not be, or ill be sooooo mad” Mae says seriously yet jokingly.

“well, i gotta go i have class and its kinda late so ill talk to you later babe.” you say

“fine, love you” mae says

“love you too, but dont tell anyone this happend. especailly mom and dad.” you say

“ok” mae said

and the call ended.

The next day you woke up, and walked to class. on the way to class you checked you phone and say that Louis called, you figured it was him because the call said it was right after you two parted ways. you decided to call him before school started. 

“hey, is this Louis?” you said

“Yeah, hey it is.. im having a couple of people over tonight do you want to come?” Louis says boldly.

“uhm, sure i mean if i can.. depends on my homework load.” you say

“ok! here my address” he said.

“hey class is going to start so ill maybe see you tonight” you say

“ok, please come.. it’ll be fun” lou says

you hung up and went to call.

Class ended and since Fran was in your class, you walked out and got lunch together. You sat down at a table and you started talking.

“Hey did you hear that Louis Tomlinson was rumored to be with a new girl last night?!” fran says.

you didn’t know what to say, because that “new girl” was you..

“uhm, really?” you said suspiciously

“Yeah, apperantly she was brown hair, and is short” fran says.

you changed the topic and asked Fran to come over.

so you two walked over to you apartment and you and her sat down on the couch.

“Fran i have to tell you something, but you have to promise me that you cant tell anybody. not even Lil of christopher.” you say nervously.

“sure, just tell me… wait are you leaving?” fran says.

“No, but yesterday at the coffee shop… uhm… i like dont even know what to say.. i guess i can say that… im that “New girl” i guess people are talking about.. but were just friends…” you say.

“Wait, are you serious? what happend!” fran said excitedly.

you told her, and you told her you were going to his house. fran’s eyes were huge, She immediately went to your closet and started goin through it and picked out some clothes.

“yeah you’re wearing this tonight.” Fran said

you blushed. ” i mean i guess so, but isnt that a little too fancy?” you said.

“no it’s perfect.” fran said

Fran stayed until it was time for you to go. it was about 7, fran left and you were on your way. you got to Louis house and you knocked on the door Louis opened it.

“i thought you weren’t going to come” he says relieved

you walked in and saw 4 other boys they all said hi. and Louis told you to sit down and hangout. you sat down and you were relived for frans outfit because you would have worn a t-shirt and yoga pants. Thank god she picked out skinny jeans a loose flowy top and some heels, or else you would be a mess. 

After a while of just you being awkward, You started joking around with the boys.. it hasn’t hit you that it was the rest of the band. But when it did… did it hit you.

“HOLY SHIT!” you said covering your mouth with embarrassment.

they all started laughing soo hard, and you turned bright red and grabbed your face. everyone was laughing still and Harry managed to get a “What” inbetween laughs.. you started laughing too. and just ignored the question. after everything calmed down you all just started talking, everybody liked you. it was getting late and you were really tired so you kind of.. just fell asleep at louis. The next morning you woke up in a bed… that wasn’t yours. you walked down the stairs and saw Louis sitting on the couch. You were so embarrassed.

“Sorry i kinda slept over, i dont even kno-” you said getting cut off

“its fine babe, last night was fun.. the boys thought you were hilarious” lou said.

you blushed and said you should probably get back home.

Louis offered to drive you home so you let him. You noticed that you were wearing a baggy shirt and pajama pants.

“Louis, how did these get on me?” you asked

“Well i woke you up after i carried you up the stairs and you put these on.” he said.

“oh” you said.

soon enough you walked out the back door and got in his car. As you two backed out, there was tons of photographers and you started getting really nervous so he put his hand on your leg to try and calm you down. after the bright light and people chasing you two you finally made it to your apartment, you said thanks and you went to your apartment. When you got in you finally realized that Louis was flirting with you, and you liked him too.. you opened up your laptop and skyped your sister.

“Mae… i have got to tell you something.” you say.

“your the “New girl” arn’t you” Mae said sassily.

“how’d you know? and im not his girlfriend i just hungout with him last night it wasn’t anything” you said.

“your all over the internet here, and i just saw something on the internet.. you slept at his house last night and he put his hand on your leg on the way home.” mae said

“i guess news really does spread fast.” you say shamefully.

“yeah, but i am mad but if you do decide to date him.. i give you permission.” mea said.

“haha ok mae, ill keep that in mind” you say.

you two ended the conversation and louis started calling you.

“Hey” you said

“hey uhm, i know we’ve only hung out a couple of times but can we go out to dinner tonight?” louis said

“Yeah, sure.” you said

“ill pick u up at 7” lou said excitedly

“ok” you hung up.

soon enough fran came over.

“what happend last night? your all over the place!” she said

“i hung out with the boys and i fell asleep at lou’s house” you said

“and im going out to dinner with him tonight.” you said again.

“sweet jesus, time for me to help you again, oh and Christopher and Lilly, know”

“oh god.” you say.

you invited over christopher and lilly, over to help too.

suprisingly they were excited to help. they helped you all day until lou was there to pick you up.

“Well, louis is here.. wish me luck!” you said to them.

you walked out and louis was waiting out side the apartment complex with a single rose. 

“wow you look stunning” louis said.

“thanks, you dont look too bad yourself” you said back

you got in the car and went to the restaurant.

“wow lou this is beautiful.”

you could sense louis was nervuos so you grabbed his hand and said 

“calm down” 

louis and you sat and talked and ate and drank for awhile. The chemistry you two had was amazing. the night was coming to an end and he and you got up to leave, and you grabbed his hand. you felt him squeeze it when you grabbed it. It was amazing. He walked you to your apartment door and said 

“ever since i saw you.. i kinda just had this feeling that you would be a amazing person.. uhmm i was-” you cut off louis and kissed him.

“… uhm… well finished what you were saying” you said

“will you be my girlfriend?” louis said

you kissed him again and said “yes”

you said good night and walked inside. Fran Lil, and chris were there.

“what the hell are you guys still doing here?” you say

“just waiting for you.” they all said

“well… guys… im his girlfriend.” you said

the rest of the night was spent tell them what happend and skyping your little sister. 

You and Louis were the perfect couple, and basically unbreakable. you were the new girlfriend of louis tomlinson. You can to london to look for love and also to learn, but you basically accomplished exactly what you needed. It was amazing.

hope you liked it, sorry it was insanely long but since we haven’t been writing lately i thought i might as well make it a long one.

xx

Christine, anne, & Marisa

like i cant.

problem? no, completely normal…. right?