You breathed in a long and deep breathe. Theres not a good time to do this (y/n), so just do it! You have to let him know before he leaves for 3 months . The words of your goodbye was running through your mind over and over like a broken record, things like, I don’t want to ever hurt you and of course, I love you but.. but then you picture the look on his face and your heart breaks. Relationships weren’t your expertise and you never really wanted one, but then Harry came up out of the blue and gave you all the reason to be in one. You drove to the airport so you could see him before he left, you wondered if he even noticed that your slowly drifting away or has he chosen not to accept it? You saw him at a little table waiting for you, when he saw you he stood up and gave you a kiss, but you turned your head so he just caught your cheek. You were never all that affectionate , but to reject a kiss gave him the clue. You sat down as he was still standing, you couldn’t even look up into his eyes, you were devastated but you had to do this, it was right. You had tears welling up in your eyes already, He slowly sat across from you, “(y/n) what’s going on? You’re scaring me..” You shook your head and let out a huge sigh, “Harry, I’m not good at relationships and if were being completely honest, I’m scared to death and I know that when you go…I’m going to need somebody. I need somebody there, I need somebody with me. I can’t go at it alone, I can’t act like everythings right anymore, I hate this. You being gone and leaving without even two seconds with you. I’m sorry. But I can’t do that.” You had two tears running down your face and you tried to be as strong as you could, but how could something so right feel so incredibly wrong. After a minute of dead silence and him taking in what was said, you got up, “I’m sorry, I have to go.” As you walked away he took your hand and gave you the most passionate kiss you’ve ever had, you looked shocked. It was one of those kisses young girls dream about getting and there you were walking away from all the young girls dreams, “What am I doing?” You whispered and looked dead into his green eyes, you shook your head, and he began, “Your right. This won’t be easy, in fact, it’s going to be really hard. But I’m not quitting on you, I honestly think your it for me. I don’t want anybody else…I want you…all day, every day. I know you hate relationships and marriage and all that, but I want to be the one who changes that for you.” You let go of his embrace, “Harry, we can talk when you get back. I have a lot to go over in my head and I don’t know what the hell I’m doing, so.” You kissed him on the cheek, feeling confused as ever. You walked away, you knew he was just standing there, watching you walk away and dammit, he was letting you do it.